"There are certain people, you just keep coming back to..."

Hiiiiiiiiii!

so, today was definitely much needed. some of my friends and i spent basically the whole day together - shopping, eating, taking ridiculous pictures, talking about absolutely everything. it was just... good, and needed. i felt like i really needed to vent about some things that have been on my mind. plus it's been awhile since we saw each other, so it was a good catch up.

i have a lot of decision making to do. i really, strongly, extremely dislike making decisions. i think it is one of my most least favorite things to do. it's such a hassle.

i'm still a bit annoyed also. it will blow over though, it always does i guess.

i'm not sure what i am doing tomorrow yet... running some errands, going to try and make it to mass- i really need it; i need to start relying on myself more to get to daily mass every now and then. i'm such a baby and hate going alone during the week. it's hard cuz my parents work, and my friends either a) wouldn't really want to go, b) are too busy to go, or c) live too far away. but i just need to get over it and start before i get too busy to go anymore. i go on sundays obviously, but there is something about daily mass, it's so refreshing! i miss it. so tomorrow is my goal... we'll see... wish me luck!

i want something exciting to happen.

second post for today...

do you ever feel like moving away and starting fresh? sometimes i do... and then sometimes i am practical and know how completely silly that would be. today is not one of those days.

i'm thinking tennessee. or maybe north carolina. Ooo or georgia. i feel like i'm supposed to be in the south. oh heck, maybe i should have gone to new york last year when i had the opportunity. (yes i know that is not in the south) i guess i'll never know. or hey maybe hawaii- want to know a funny story? i almost applied to schools in hawaii because i thought it would be an adventure...

sometimes i think we all just need a change of scenery. or to go somewhere where nobody knows us and see what we would do. too bad i have another two years of college... or else maybe i could make it happen.

blah. blah. blah. i wish i could actually write about how extremely annoyed i am :( too bad i won't...

My Guilty Pleasure...

reality tv....

i've become obsessed. practically all of my favorite shows i've come to realize are reality tv shows (with the exception of gilmore girls & grey's anatomy). American Idol. Dancing With the Stars. So you think you can dance. The Hills. America's Next Top Model. Jon & Kate Plus 8 (is that considered reality tv? yes...i believe so.) and the worst of them all... The Bachelorette (or The Bachelor depending on the season.)

This is so embarrassing to admit but i get SO into these shows, and so attached to the people. I've been watching the Bachelorette this season since i have a little more time for tv now that it's summer.
I would love to be on this show! haha... 25 guys to choose from?! sign me up! jusssst kidding. but seriously i do love watching it.

My favorite guy so far is... Jake. I wish I were kidding when I say this, but last night Jillian had a one on one date with him and it made me cry. pathetic much? he was just SO sweet. definitely would be my pick!

Isn't he cute? PLUS! he's a pilot! and he brought Jillian those cute little pilot wings! precious i tell ya. he seems so genuine and sweet! he better go far or i don't know if i can keep watching... too bad he's 11 years older than me ;)

prayer folder

soo, at our last student leader meeting for FOCUS we were given these folders... inside the folder there was a daily reflection, a chapter in the Bible to read, and an act or daily little "homework assignment" of sorts... there are things like go to confession, don't care what others think of you today, give up sweets, give God 5 extra minutes, etc. it's filled with all sorts of wonderful things like that... and i was flipping through the past weeks and came across this one again so i thought i'd share it, it is The Suscipe of St. Ignatius Loyola:

Lord Jesus Christ, take all my freedom, my memory, my understanding, and my will. All that I have and cherish You have given me. I surrender it all to be guided by Your will. Your grace and Your love are wealth enough for me. Give me these, Lord Jesus and I ask for nothing more.

It got me thinking... my friends and I lately have been focusing so much on what is bothering us. Things that are confusing us, things we don't like or are frustrated by... and it makes me wonder. Why are we not simply satisfied by the wonderful love we are given each day. God's will for us is bigger than we can even imagine - so trying to figure it out on our own - is well, a little silly to be honest. ;) i've learned this the hard way. Ever heard the quote "If life isn't the way you like it, like it the way it is." ?? well! it's SO true. because we need to learn to love every little bit of our lives...even the sufferings because we are all made strong enough to get through it. and eventually, the suffering is going to start to become less and less -- as we start to have God's plans for us revealed.

not only do we need to love everything, but we need to love everyone. and guess what? everyone includes ourselves! i think this is a hard part for a lot of us. it's so hard to sit down sometimes, and think about all the gifts we are blessed with. we are so blinded by the things we dislike abour ourselves, that we are missing all the things that are incredible. i think it's important to take time to figure out why you love yourself - and share that with other people. i think we all could benefit from that! just a thought. :) sorry for the tangent...

hmm. idk, it was just a really cool prayer i thought! :) i've been having kind of a blah day. i feel like i'm stuck in a funk. i'm going to try and appreciate the little things around me more though... for instance: today is a BEAUTIFUL day. i have a wonderful family who i just sat down to a delicious meal with, and of course my adorable little dog who i love with all my heart - plus some really amazing friends.

"Be still and know that I AM."

Dresses & blog awards :)

Hey look! Justine gave me a lovely blog award! how exciting! i don't exactly think my blog is as good as others yet- but i'm trying! thanks justine! i think your blog is lovely too of course, it's the whole reason i even started blogging. :)

so i went shopping with meg today! that was a lot of fun. i found this crazy prom dress... i kid you not this definitely could pass for a wedding dress. so i decided to try it on just cuz i was so curious... and oh my goodness. this was ridiculous, if anyone ever wore this for prom their date would run far, far away! haha it had "I want to be a bride!" written all over it. i also tried on another dress that made me look like a flight attendant. all in all it was a successful trip to the mall and a fun reunion.

i think dresses make me happy.. i just love trying them on and if i had more money i bet i'd buy a thousand! they are so flowy and pretty.

i really could go for some sonic... :) typical.

tonight i went to mcdonald's for ice cream with my friends, and we saw a little group of girls who had just come from a dance recital! it was adorable and really made me miss my recital days.

well i think i'm going to try and get to bed early tonight (haha...) happy memorial day weekend!

p.s. i really want to go on a road trip. even a mini road trip. i kind of want to go explore this little church i found an hour away from here...hmmmm. hey justine, want to go with me? ;)

American Idol!!

woooooooooo! soooo, i haven't really gotten much into idol this season. mainly cuz i had no time to watch it at school. but! i've gotten hooked here at the end, and have been thrilled that my favorite (kris allen) was still there! so the past few weeks i've been definitely rooting for him!

don't get me wrong...adam, seemed nice and obviously had a good voice. but...kris just seemed so natural to me. real. i'd definitely go out and buy his cd. i feel adam would be better suited on broadway. :) he seemed like a sweetheart though.

but kris. i would marry him. really. it could work... he's only 23 :) and married -- so maybe not...

but his duet tonight with keith urban - oh my goodness, made my heart melt! i'm so glad kris won!! wooooooooo

it was really cute too, he is always so sweet & humble and doesn't show a whole lot of emotion...and then his wife came over to him after he won and he just completely broke down sobbing with her. it was precious. kris is precious. gaaah! i want to go to the concert now :) i'm going to rewatch his duet with keith the cutie.

until next time... :)

Kentucky GRILLED chicken!

so i tried kentucky grilled chicken today because we had a buy one get one coupon for a two piece chicken meal with two sides! it was actually a really great deal. i'm not sure how i felt about the chicken - it wasn't bad, not great either. but still good. i love their sides though - i got mashed potatoes and cole slaw yum! and a biscuit. :)

we also went garage saling today...and got completely lost in this subdivision! oops... seriously, this was the most confusing area i have ever seen. we kept turning and turning, and ending up on another street which would lead to another street..so on and so forth.

then i came back and took a nice, long nap! it was pretty great. then dinner & ice cream with my friend. i got lost again. it's so weird i never get lost, i'm usually really good about that. i think i'm just not used to driving around my area yet. haha sad day... or i'm losing my mind. quite possible.

i hear it is supposed to get warmer this week- i can't wait!

so i'm obsessed with the show Ghost Whisperer... but i really need to stop watching it... it scares the heck out of me and i always regret it! but it's a really good show too! it's how i am with scary movies. i get so scared, but i love them. haha go figure.

well, that's all for now. night!

summmmmertime

lesson of the day: television has way too much control over people these days.

so today it was rainy & gross out, and i didn't feel like doing a whole lot, so i literally sat and watched hours of america's next top model reruns. seriously, that show is so addictive! & then tonight i watched the recent season finale of antm and american idol (yay kris!!). blech. i feel so lazy. i really hate "relaxing." i don't think im physically capable of doing it. it's like when i relax i just think about all the other billion things i could be doing. i just like being busy.

i heard back from one of my volunteer jobs today. i'm really excited for it! if only it paid, then i wouldn't need another job ;)

i really want to go to six flags. i've never, ever been on a rollercoaster (unless you count those little kiddie dragon ones from carnivals.) so it's my goal to go on one this summer.

i'm really wanting some warm weather to come our way. i want to wear skirts & dresses and sit outside in the sunshine!

i haven't been sleeping well at all lately. idk what's wrong :( hopefully i get a full night's sleep tonight! mehh

migraines.

i really, really, really, strongly dislike headaches. blah. heads were not made to hurt.

HSM3 = Family bonding

Lesson of the day: Junior Sonic burgers are ten times more delicious than the (already delicious) regular sized ones because they are ohso adorable.

heeeeey! long time no blog! finals week kept me busy, but the countdown is over! it's summer! im a junior! im hoooome!

it feels so completely good to be home. such a relief to have this (school)year over. it was filled with projects and lots of work. ohh the joys of being a special education major. but it will be worth it in the end.

today was a good day. :] i spent the day shopping with my mom! it was great. we woke up early and went out for lunch while browsing at the mall. after that i came home to bake brownies for jon & justine. yeeah. i failed. the brownies turned out horrible. i wish i was exaggerating. i LOVE to cook but sometimes i think i'm a jinx in the kitchen! idk...i'll work on it. ;) then i headed over to jon & justine's for a yummy dinner that justine made us! we were finally reunited! yaay. it was so good to see them. i missed them. :)

then the three of us settled in for some nice family bonding while watching high schoo musical 3. it was actually really good! cheesy. but that was expected. i think our added commentary made it even better. then we went to...get ready for it...sonic!!! our favorite place. :) it made me extremely hyper. oopsies!

i'm really blessed to have such good people in my life.

i may go eat one of my gross brownies...i feel bad for them, it isn't their fault they're gross...

Ohhh hey

hello! it's been awhile!

Lesson of the day: cookies make any day worthwhile.

Soo, my dorm room is so completely empty - it's a little sad and depressing, but also very exciting because summer is sooooo close i can feel it !! today my parents came to help move out most of my stuff, so that this week i can just leave! we also went out to dinner at this amazing chinese restaurant. it was so good. yum. and my mom brought me a huge bag of cookies from panera! (yes justine, even chocolate chipper cookies tehe)

i went to a praise and worship at newman today. it was pretty great. i'm realizing more and more that i need to pray for things that i don't necessarily want to happen. does that make sense? i need to pray for God's will to work its way in my life and in others lives that i care about even if i don't know what that means yet. justine helped me figure that out. especially the whole praying for other people and God's will for them part ;) haha God's sense of humor is really pretty great lately. today it was particularly hilarious. . .

i think i ate too much today. i feel sick. i went crazy at lunch and ate EVERYTHING in the cafeteria. you think i'm kidding, i'm not. then dinner my parents and i got a meal for three. well guess who ate most if it...yeah, that'd be me. and then i pigged out on puppy chow & cookies all night. yikes! sugar overload.

i feel like i'm overly stressed and don't even realize it. haha. i want a vacation. :) a whole week of no worries and sunshine. sounds wonderful to me. let's go.

i can't believe i'm officially going to be a junior in college in 5 days. sounds ridiculous.

"Everybody's singin' now
Cuz we're so happy
Yeah,
Everybody's dancin' now
Cuz we're so happy

If only I could see your face,
See you smiling over us
And unseen angels celebrate
Hey!
The joy is in this place
Yeah,The joy is in this place"

Oooh what a good song :D