bittersweet.

The more things change, the more they stay the same -- find comfort in the chaos.

haha, ironic that this just happens to be my horoscope for the day.

we got some news today that a lot of the staff at our church's newman center on campus at school has been let go due to financial issues, and our priest whom we all love is being transferred to minnesota. the thing is... we have such a family formed- the staff, the students, the priests. we all know each other, we all are a team - a community. getting this news has been so hard on all of us. we're losing some of the people who made this place so wonderful. so comfortable. our home away from home. these people have seen all of us through some really great times, and some really tough ones. they're our shoulders to cry on when we're far away and need a comforting person to talk to, laugh with, share our lives with.

however, i can't help but wonder if this is God's way of telling us it's our turn. you know? maybe we need to stop relying on others to do what we are capable of. maybe we need to go out and make things happen on our own. maybe we'll get a new priest that is equally as amazing as our old one. (although he is going to have large shoes to fill..)

maybe this is a chance for us to dive into prayer full force and grow closer to God while He gets us through this rough patch. maybe His plan is so big that it's leaving us a little lost and confused right now, but will be revealed to us through the course of this next year. it's going to be a challenge. maybe this year will be our best yet.

or maybe not...

i'm a little nervous. i was just getting so comfortable there. i don't like change. i'm trying though. and praying. and being hopeful. it's hard.

Rejoice in hope, endure in affliction, perservere in prayer.
Romans 12:12