"Cause everyone who sees you, always wants to know you and everyone who knows you, always has a smile"

i'm going to preface this with, i am the hugest dork in the world. i have accepted it.

moving on..

the bachelorette finale was tonight! hooooooooly cow!!!! best finale, hands down i've ever seen. as stupid as many claim this show is, i don't care. i love it. i will defend it as much as i need to. i think the only reason i loved it so much this time though is because i genuinely got attached to the last two (three) guys, and i already thought jillian was a great choice for the bachelorette!

but i never thought i'd cry so much. yikes. who am i kidding? i'm a sap. a huge sap. i am living vicariously through her - haha she had three guys wanting to marry her tonight! and i just lost it when they started playing, "i just call you mine" by martina mcbride. i can guarantee you right now that will be the song at my wedding someday. well, maybe. but a definite contender. for now i will just listen to it and pretend. (ahem, not that i am doing that right now or anything...)

Sad how excited i was to watch this tonight though, live i've said before -- i am way too attached to reality tv.

so i was trying to think of a fun little day trip i could take w/some of my friends maybe... lake geneva? chicago for the day? i don't know. knowing me i most likely will not have time for a day trip. but we'll see. this weekend i went to the most amazing shopping center in our area- for sure, going back there probably everyday. but, i got some adoooorable new shirts that i'm super excited to start wearing!!!

class is over in count 'em TWO DAYS! yesssssss. i couldn't be happier! i was such a spaz in class tonight. i don't know what was wrong with me. hyper up the wazoo. the poor people who sit by me :/ during our quiz i just busted out laughing and couldn't stop. what was funny?! absolutely nothing. you never know what will set me off.

on a completely different note...

i'm losing a lot of respect for people lately. haha how horrible is it to admit that in my blog?! really horrible, i guess. but i need to vent it somewhere and in writing is always easier for me. the sad part is i'm learning a lot about some of my closest friends (not all!), that i don't know if i like so much. what do you do when you feel like some of your closest friends are just plain letting you down? confrontation isn't my strong point...so i'll probably just leave it as is. i'm just really struggling with how to handle it. not to mention the other 5,000 things i have on my mind right now. oh well.

ah well, it was nice being able to ramble for a bit. i only have about 2 weeks left of summer. i don't think i feel like going back to school quite yet...