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i am back at germville, USA. feeling really sick still...but my fever is finally gone. i should be working on homework right now, but, i just can't get myself to do it! please say a prayer i get caught up on all of my homework this week! i feel so nervous and stressed, i really don't like being behind!

random sidenote: i had corn souflee tonight! it is DELICOUS!!

random sidenote again: i have been so lonely in my apartment lately! i was honestly dreading coming back to my apartment from home. i miss the dorms.. (only a little) because there were always so many girls around to hang out with whenever you needed a break from homework. i miss that atmosphere. but i do not miss sharing a bathroom with sooo many people! sharing with one person is enough for me. :)
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so tonight i was reading through my Bible, and i was feeling a little unsure of what to read. nothing jumped out at me, and nothing really was sticking with me either. so finally i decided to pray and ask God to have me open to the verse I needed to read.

Well, i opened straight to a passage all about death! yikes! not sure what that was supposed to mean, hah - God has a strange sense of humor.

but then, i opened to a reflection page, (i was using my devotional Bible) and found something a woman wrote about being too busy for God. and how sometimes we are SO busy, that we don't have enough quiet time in our day to hear God speak to us. or maybe the quiet times we DO have with God we are filling up with our thoughts, our wants, our fears - which is good, obviously He wants to hear those. But, sometimes we just need to let HIM speak to US.

the last few sentences said, " The voice of God is always speaking to us, and always trying to get our attention. But His voice is a "still, small voice," and we must at least slow down in order to listen."

ah it's so funny, because, remember how i am crazy about St. Therese of Lisieux? her whole message is to LOVE, and also to appreciate the little voices out there - because the little voices have so much love to give, so much joy to spread, so much to offer the world. they are forgotten about though, because they are small & meek. But God completely chooses these specific people to work through the most!

who ever thought that God's voice would be still & small? it makes so much sense. i think i always picture it to be loud and booming. like a huge speaker projecting from the sky at me. but no! how silly of me. of course God would not be like that. God is gentle, and kind, not big and scary! and what He has to say is so valuable that we have to listen extra carefully to hear it. that's why He is so hard to hear sometimes. He is training us to hear His voice. His still, small voice.

"This is what the Sovereign Lord , the Holy One of Israel says: "In repentance and rest is your salvation, in quietness and trust is your strength..."
-Isaiah 30:15

we can find God in all the quiet little moments of our day, because that is where He resides. that is when we can fill ourselves up with His love and strength. we are never too busy for Him! :)

it kind of takes on a whole new meaning to "be still and know that I AM" don't ya think?