oooof! break is so tiring! hah! i just have so much i want to do, so many people i want to see...and just not enough time. it's a blessing really. however, i just want so badly to be able to see all the people i want to see and who want to see me.
which leads me to another realization i had. the Lord wants us to have peace in our lives, and yes we are supposed to love everyone, and be there for others - while being Christ to them at the same time. and i think at times i confuse that for 'i need to be there for everyone at every moment.' which gets VERY tiring. emotionally and physically. and let's be honest, it's just not possible, let alone healthy. i am learning to not spread myself too thin.
peace is not always easy to acquire in the busy day-to-day moments, but we have to look at our days, and see what we can place in them to give us joy. and to rejuvenate us. i'm learning it's okay to not always want to be with everyone all the time. that doesn't make me anti-social. it's just me learning to place God first and to do what will be most pleasing to Him. and sometimes what is pleasing to Him surprises me. i feel that yes of course He finds joy when i pray, and go to mass, etc. but He also finds joy when i take an hour or so out of my schedule to just relax in my pajamas while drinking hot chocolate. sounds silly, right? but if that's what will bring me the most joy & peace in that moment - it will in turn bring Him joy too.
i guess it's just something i've been thinking about because sometimes i have a hard time saying 'no' to fun plans, even though i'm tired and really would just enjoy an evening in. :) it's a good lesson to learn!
---- on another note
my friend and i went to the mall today and HOLY COW. it was so stinking packed. i couldn't handle it! i was completely overwhelmed, and knocked over a couple of times i think. so we quickly bought what we needed to and peaced out haha. the mall is notttt a very relaxing place during the holidays!
Also, my favorite day of the whoooooooole year is THURSDAYYYYYYYYYYY! WOOHOO!! any fun Christmas plans?!
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